i haven’t written in weeks. my running is sporadic. christmas continues to elude me and my heart is broken. as i bring 2009 to a close i can only hope that i can put what has been a rocky latter half of the year behind and rediscover the strength i know i have.
there’s no real need for me to detail [...]
Archive for the ‘fear’ Category
the finish line
Posted in 30-something single, fear, gasparilla, life, new love, relationships, simply me, tagged running, relationships, love, marathon, demons, gasparilla, thirty-something single, unreq on December 22, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
one today at a time
Posted in 30-something single, challenge, divorce and co-parenting, fear, life, parenting, relationships, simply me, tagged divorce and co-parenting, fear, love, new love, relationships, thirty-something single on November 9, 2009 | 1 Comment »
i’ve gone and done it. slipped and fell. let down all the defenses and admitted to him ~ and to myself ~ that i am in love. my confession was abrupt, unexpected and ill-timed ~ or maybe ideally. he was sitting on a plane. only minutes to share before the flight attendant’s insistence that all electronic [...]
my final hoo-rah!
Posted in 30-something single, fear, marathon, marine corp marathon, relationships, running, tagged run, running, running club on October 23, 2009 | 2 Comments »
well this will be a brief and final update before i head out to catch my flight up to dc to run the marine corp marathon. the last few weeks have been emotionally draining. i’m in over my head with things with jc and it’s come to a breaking point of sorts. the week away [...]
body and mind
Posted in challenge, fear, life, marine corp marathon, running, simply me on October 7, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
week of sept 27
total mileage 27
sunday 4 miles ~ trails
average 9:20
monday off
tuesday 5 miles ~ home tread
average 9:00
wednesday 6 miles ~ gornto
average 9:15
thursday off
friday 12 miles ~ fishhawk
average 9:27
saturday off
shoes
asics gt-2140 112 miles
these days it seems that if it’s not one thing it’s another. after doing 22.5 again on saturday i felt renewed. ready to tackle the last few weeks of training [...]
the damage is done
Posted in challenge, disney marathon, fear, life, marathon, marine corp marathon, running, simply me on September 21, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
week of sept 13
total mileage 19.5 running, 9 biking, 1:25:00 DWR (deep water run)
sunday 4 miles ~ trails
average 9:15
monday 35 minutes DWR
tuesday off
wednesday 4 miles ~ trails
average
thursday 2.5 ~ home tread
average 9:45
friday50 minute DWR
saturday 9 ~ fishhawk + 9 mile bike ride
average 9:38
shoes
asics gt-2140 58 miles
another week where i feel my body has failed me. this injury has shifted, diminished, reappeared and at [...]
me, myself and … us?
Posted in 30-something single, fear, life, relationships, simply me, tagged fear, friendship, independent women, life, love, new love, relationships, thirty-something single on September 15, 2009 | 1 Comment »
i don’t like being wrong. i don’t mean making a mistake at work or misstating a fact ~ though really i’m not a fan of those scenarios either. but what bothers me most is to think it likely that i’m wrong about myself. as someone who always thinks before acting, reflects upon my inner psyche and truly believes i [...]
sleep sets in
Posted in 30-something single, challenge, fear, life, marathon, marine corp marathon, random, relationships, running, simply me, tagged cross training, demons, insomnia, marathon, marine corp marathon, relationships, run, running, train, training on September 13, 2009 | 2 Comments »
there’s no point in even breaking out my mileage this week. i can sum it up in one short four mile run. toss in a 14 mile bike ride and a 40 minute deep water run and that’s all she wrote. the run was simply a test of the achilles and it failed. pain set [...]
finding the rhythm
Posted in challenge, fear, marathon, marine corp marathon, running, simply me on August 25, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
week of aug 16
total mileage 39
sunday off
monday 5 miles ~ hills on the tread
times 9:45 9:00 9:00 9:00 9:45 (estimated based on speed and incline)
tuesday 4 miles ~ four green fields
average 9:00
wednesday 7 miles ~ home tread
average 9:50
thursday 5 miles ~ speed work ~ home tread
times mile warm-up at 10:00, 5 x 880s @ 4:00 with 440 cool downs, 1/2 mile [...]
11 weeks ’til mcm
Posted in challenge, fear, marathon, marine corp marathon, running, simply me, tagged marathon, marine corp marathon, race, racing, run, running, running club, training, treadmill on August 16, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
week of aug 9
total mileage 35
sunday off
monday 5 miles ~ hills on the tread
times 9:45 9:00 9:00 9:00 9:45 (estimated based on speed and incline)
tuesday off
wednesday 5 miles speedwork ~ neighborhood track
average 1 mile warmup, 4 x 880s at 3:35, 3:36, 3:38, 3:40, 1 mile cool down
thursday off
friday 18 ~ fishhawk
average 9:44
saturday 7 miles ~ home tread
average 10:00
shoes
asics gt-2140 total [...]
running away
Posted in 30-something single, challenge, fear, life, marathon, marine corp marathon, relationships, running, simply me on August 9, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
week of aug 2
total mileage 36
sunday off
monday 5 miles ~ hills
times 9:58 9:28 9:27 9:56 9:22
tuesday 4 miles ~ four green fields
average 9:18
wednesday off
thursday 3 miles ~ home tread and 6 miles ~ home tread
average 9:50 and 9:45
friday off
saturday 18 ~ fishhawk
average 9:47
shoes
asics gt-2140 total mileage 339
i think something clicked in my training this week. in spite of time constraints, [...]
