I decided it was time to start fresh. There’s a lot of history here that I need to move on from. I’m hoping that by leaving it behind I can actually move forward with running and writing again. So if you care to follow my journey you can now find me here …

Running Trail Tails


January 3, 2018 at 11:40 am 1 comment

i’m ready to wake up

so my first race since the 100 attempt is next weekend. just a sprint tri. it hasn’t been the most stellar of training cycles but i’ve been getting it done. i’ve done a few bricks. including a long of 30 on the bike followed by four on the run. definite overkill for a sprint but short distance has never appealed to me. i also did a long ride of 40. during which i got stung by a bee … on my crotch! seriously. damn. painful!

last weekend a small group of us drove up to torreya. we’ve done the trip a few times but usually a tad bit later in the year for cooler temps. it wasn’t the most comfortable of camping experiences given the heat but it was fun nonetheless. the elevation up there is brutal! so different than the florida flat we know. longest run i did was 10 which given the heat and the hills i wasn’t too disappointed with.

i’m also trying to mix it up a bit. last night i did orangetheory for the first time. it was different but kind of cool. i’m not a fan of being stuck inside for a workout but it really wasn’t bad. not sure yet if i’ll sign up but i know i need some sort of strength training as a constant and maybe that’s a good start.

overall i’m excited about next weekend. i need that energy again. the camaraderie and competition of race day. i’m hoping it awakens something in me that’s been laying dormant for far too long.

September 29, 2016 at 1:20 pm 1 comment


trying to come back from a mental “blah” is harder than from a physical injury! i’m seriously trying to find a rhythm but it ain’t easy. two weeks ago i managed to get in only two runs. of only four miles each. and one ride of 18. but i also had a last minute visit from the bunny which of course meant patron. lots of it. and the once or twice a year i get to see her makes the over drinking, over eating and under exercising worth it.

this past week was a little bit better. only two runs again but this time four and eight, a 20 mile ride and a first dip back in the pool. i have to admit i kind of missed the water. especially in the hell heat of summer we’ve been enduring. i had hoped to manage somewhere around 800 meters comfortably. but ended up making it a full 1600! barely. at 1,550 i heard the lifeguard whistle and knew the storm i was racing was about to beat me but she let me finish my down lap to complete the mile.

the goals this coming week. (yes goals. i think setting measurable markers again will help) are:

swim: two times 1600m each
bike: two times with a 25 mile long
run: three times with a 10 mile long

with at least one bike to run brick. the only problem i foresee facing is this …

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we are, literally supposed to have solid rain for the next three days. i guess it’s the treadmill and bike trainer for me. blah.


August 8, 2016 at 5:54 am Leave a comment


it’s time to come back. to here and to the run. and since the two have always gone hand-in-hand, it’s my last ditch effort on accountability before i admit defeat. i have forgotten that i am an athlete. sure, i run. sometimes. a few miles here. 15 miles there. it’s inconsistent at best and i’m no longer ok with it.

back in january. good god it’s been that long since i’ve written. i ran the croom zoom 100 miler. correction, i attempted to run the croom zoom 100. i try not to call that day a failure. i made it further than the body had ever allowed. 62 miles. but i didn’t make it the 100 i had set out for and in my mind, the means i failed.

my knee was shot. i mean SHOT. and after a few weeks down i did the obligatory X-ray that found arthritis. bone on bone. minor but enough that i had to consider options. after months of insurance company battles that option ended up being a series of injections of a joint lubricant. since then i’ve struggled. physically i’ve been ok. not 100 percent but good enough. but mentally i’ve yet to regain what i lost.

but i’m ready. not sure exactly what for yet. i toy with the idea that i still want to do a full iron man. but i hate that i have yet to check the 100 off my bucket list. then there’s still that pesky sub-4 marathon. do i dare leave the comfort and security of the woods and hit the road again in quest of speed?

but i’ve waffled over the debate for too long. so a few days ago i made a commitment. a small one. just a sprint tri in october. but a commitment nonetheless. yesterday i got back on the bike for the first ride in more than a year. and this week comes the water. i’m also on the waiting list for AO. a 100 mile race in december. that one is a “we’ll see” at best. it’s a free race and i can say no at any time so no skin off my back to stay wait listed as long as i need to decide.

hopefully i can commit to things. the races and the words. i miss both.

July 24, 2016 at 6:38 am Leave a comment

price adjustment

we didn’t get the house. three bidders and we lost due to the need for contingency on the sale of mine. but but but … we got an even better house! that i LOVE! the location is unbelievable. two miles from mini-me’s school, half a mile from the bay run and a quick ride across the bridge to the weedon trails. the french doors out to the half-screened, half-open patio with a beautiful old tree in the middle and built-in benches are begging to be open in the cooler weather while the dogs romp in the huge back yard. and the character of a 1950’s bungalow fits us far better than the cookie cutter stucco of florida suburbia hell. i was so worried about losing this one i made an offer before mini and the trainer even stepped inside. thankfully, a few days later when they finally did, they loved it as much as i did.

now the juggle begins. our lives packed in PODS this weekend. mini to her dad’s and the trainer and i to denver on tuesday for a week. and we come back homeless. a temporary sarasota stay until we close on the new house on the 23rd. thanksgiving week. i figured the holiday would buy me a few days of unpacking and unwinding.

to say i’m a disaster right now is an understatement. chaos doesn’t suit me well. and the fact that we just did this a few months ago feels like really bad deja vu. but this time i’m excited about the destination. this time i feel like i’m going home.

October 27, 2015 at 9:57 am Leave a comment


after a mere nine days on the market, i accepted an offer on my house yesterday morning. for exactly what we expected.  incredible … yes! scary … hell yes! mostly because we now find ourselves in quite the predicament. the guy who bought mine wants to move quickly. as in end-of-the-month-close quickly. realistically, the realtor, who is unofficially helping me on the sell side, has filled us in on new laws that make a close that quick unlikely. but regardless, they want to push through as fast as possible.

so, we went to make an offer on the house we’ve had our eye on for the last couple of weeks. and lo and behold it already had an offer on it. but they hadn’t accepted yet and agreed to keep the table open for ours … and the third person who suddenly expressed interest as well. so now we find ourselves in a bidding war with a final decision supposed to made tomorrow evening.

best case, we win. but even then the chance of us closing as quickly as my buyer is slim to none. worst case, we lose. either way, we’ll be homeless. be it for a couple weeks or a couple months. we’ll make it work. stuff will go in storage. mini-me can stay with her dad. and i’ll commute up from the training house down south. an hour drive each way which won’t be fun but a temporary nuisance for a longterm solution!

I’m excited. i’m nervous. i’m totally freaking out. but i also trust it will all work out the way it’s supposed to. but cross your fingers for me just in case it helps!

October 14, 2015 at 11:45 am Leave a comment

wanna’ buy a house?

we’re moving … again!

it’s only been about four months since we moved back into the house i own in the ‘burbs. mini-me and i lived there for about six years before i rented it out and moved to get her into a better school district for middle and high school. but after she opted to go to a not-so-restricted-by-district high school our options opened up and we moved back to have more room for the addition of the trainer and his dogs. but we’ve very quickly come to hate it. cookie cutter subdivision living and suburbia mentality. bitchy neighbors and HOA bullshit. it’s not us. at all. and we want out.

last week for shits and giggles we decided to explore and just see if we could find something we liked, in the hood we want, in our price range. and go figure the first house we saw, we loved. but of course making an offer is contingent on getting an offer on mine since i need the equity in it for the down payment on something new.

we are going to start by listing for sale by owner to try and save on commission so that means cleaning, organizing, staging and photo shooting on my own. add that on top of a high-demand job that currently includes after-hours work in an online harvard certification course, 100 mile race training, teenage parenting and four dogs! and due to some staff changes in the trainer’s company he’s been mostly living and working hands-on back at the facility an hour south so it’s all on me! um yeah. if i’m not insane already i’m sure bound to be there soon!

then this morning they dropped the price on the house we want. i knew they would at some point. their realtor told ours they knew it was priced high which we hoped would buy us some time but looks like time is running out! hopefully we’ll be listed by tomorrow and with any luck we’ll get an offer quickly. current average time on market in my hood is 20 days so we’ve got a chance at making this work. cross your fingers for us!

September 30, 2015 at 7:43 am Leave a comment

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the best of times

5k pr ~ 24:23
10k pr ~ 52:49
half marathon pr ~ 1:55:10
marathon pr ~ 4:10:41
half ironman pr ~ 5:57:50
50k pr ~ 5:33:23
50-mile pr ~ 11:32:39