spiral

April 29, 2009 at 2:47 pm 3 comments

i know my writing doesn’t reflect it, but i’ve been running. pretty regularly at that. the past few weeks were finally bringing back a feeling of control and dedication. i stopped insisting on trying to make a definitive decision on trying to BQ and simply started to run. no training schedule to adhere to yet, no times to beat and no pressure. maybe it was simply the love of the run that kept me from admitting there was an issue. but i don’t think i can deny it anymore.

i can’t pinpoint the pain. yesterday i’d have sworn it was in the arch of my foot. today, the ankle. this morning i thought it was swollen and a little blue. this afternoon i think i was imagining it. five minutes ago i sat on hold with my insurance company to find out if i need a referral for the specialist. right now i’m convinced i simply need to adhere to a regimen of rest and ice. i can’t make a decision in either direction and my frustration is ever increasing.

i’m not good at this. i don’t like to give into pain. i don’t like to admit something is wrong. and i don’t like to be unable to run. the endorphin withdrawl crash hits hard. it’s not a good day. let the downward spiral begin.

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Entry filed under: fear, life, running.

weeks of march 23 and 30 arch enemy

3 Comments Add your own

  • 1. sarah  |  April 29, 2009 at 7:49 pm

    (((HUGS)))

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  • 2. gr4c5  |  May 6, 2009 at 8:35 am

    i feel as though i have been in a time warp – life has moved on all around me. Hope all is getting better for you! miss you! xoxox

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  • 3. becelisa  |  May 7, 2009 at 9:21 am

    i’ve been in that kind of space and time myself. have had so much going on and simply haven’t had a grasp on life as of late. i need that wine date soon. i miss you and can’t wait to see you in july! be sure to clear a few spots on your calendar for me! xoxo

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