the road less traveled

August 2, 2009 at 11:32 pm Leave a comment

i broke a rule i hold firm. crossed a line i didn’t even realize i was toeing. it was awkward at first. uncomfortable and uncertain footing in a new place that redefined things. i instantly regretted and wished it back, my common sense screaming at me to understand the potential repercussions. i vowed to stop before it truly began. given all givens it was by far the most rational decision made and we all know i am the quintessential rationalist. but as i aimed to address it. as i searched for the way to clearly communicate why. i found myself reading and rereading the words laid before me only days before.

rb ~ a few thoughts :
~ nothing spectacular ever happens without being potentially dangerous.
~ craziness is the starting point of every great success story.
life is a  game of chance. i always regret the ones i don’t take much more than those i do.
~ i’m probably going to bg on saturday afternoon/evening. i’ll pick you up if you want to go.

i leave so little to chance. risks are not my forte and a lack of solid ground and understanding is unnerving. ask me to live day to day and simply take things as they come and i’m apt to grow tense from the discomfort of the mere thought of not being fully in control. but ask me where i feel my life is spectacular and i will tell you ~ no where. ask me if i’m truly happy and i’ll say ~ there’s something missing. ask me if i’m lonely ~ and my answer always skirts the truth.

so i’m standing at a crossroads. frost said to take the road less traveled. and i can tell you so many reasons why i won’t    shouldn’t   can’t  … why this time … i might.

Entry filed under: 30-something single, divorce and co-parenting, fear, life, random, relationships. Tags: , , .

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