recommitment

January 17, 2010 at 8:46 pm 3 comments

week of january 10
total mileage 22

sunday 4 miles ~ gym tread
average 8:40

monday off

tuesday 3 miles ~ irish run
average 8:35

wednesday off

thursday 4 miles ~ track
sab training 5w/5r/5w/5r/5w (w=walk, r=run) ~ 1.4 miles total
3-880s with 440 cool downs  3:57, 3:55, 3:51
1/2 mile cool down

friday off

saturday 11 miles ~ fishhawk
average 9:36

shoes
asics gt-2150  miles 38

total 2010 miles 54

i failed to write that i set myself back up. let myself take that little bit of hope with jc. opted to accept the minimal when in reality i knew i deserved so much more. likely needless to say it was the wrong choice. it is now truly over. monday night was hell. tuesday i failed to get out of bed until the irish run. wednesday i spent way too much money on retail therapy. and by thursday i had bounced back enough to function and put on the face of the little-bit-of-bitch i harbor within when i prefer no one sees the broken pieces.

the week was somewhat minimal for the run. not horrible but not what i had wanted to do. hopefully this is the last of the days where i allow myself to fall victim to the self-pity. i’m certainly getting better at snapping back out of it and this time around feels different. i know it’s his loss. i know i am strong. i know what i deserve. saturday’s run of 11 miles helped boost the confidence. the ankle seems to be faring well. i’m staying off hills for a bit longer but i did speed work again this week and realized how much i’ve truly missed it. running hard. pushing the pace. it’s rough implementing it back into training. it hurts ~ but so damn good! i managed 3-880s this week. with negative times at that. i started a 4th but dropped at 440. the legs felt just a little bit too much like jello.

since a spreadsheet and a plan seem to do me well, i finally had eko send me a plan for the gasparilla half. goal is a 1:55 which would give me a 2 minute PR. barring any unforeseen circumstances, ankle setbacks or weather like last year, i think it’s a goal well within reach. so hopefully this is finally the beginning of the recommitment i’ve been trying to find. no more losing focus. no more letting injury beat me. i am taking back control.

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once a marathoner, always a marathoner sometimes life just gets in the way

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  • 1. bgirl875  |  January 21, 2010 at 2:24 pm

    Just came across your blog in my tag surfer. Your writing is great, very inspirational to a new runner, like myself. I realize I may never see the finish line of a marathon, but I’m starting to understand running is more about the process than the end result. Your posts are testament to that.

    I look forward to reading more.

    bgirl875
    -www.runblackgirlrun.com

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  • 2. becelisa  |  January 21, 2010 at 2:42 pm

    bgirl ~ thank you! it’s nice to hear that my stories can be inspirational. you are so right that running is more about the process. every mile i run is in some way theraputic to my soul. sort of a journey within. i read a few of your posts and want you to know that i once hated running too. not long ago either. three and half years ago i couldn’t run a mile. now i can’t imagine my life without my run. i look forward to reading more on your journey.

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  • 3. bgirl875  |  January 21, 2010 at 5:48 pm

    OMG, are you kidding me? You have no idea how much hope you just instilled in me. Thanks for that.

    Take care!

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5k pr ~ 24:23
10k pr ~ 52:49
half marathon pr ~ 1:55:10
marathon pr ~ 4:10:41
half ironman pr ~ 5:57:50
50k pr ~ 5:33:23
50-mile pr ~ 11:32:39

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