it’s my party and i’ll cry if i want to

June 17, 2010 at 8:52 am 5 comments

it’s my birthday. twenty-nine … again. and again. and again. and again. ok fine … i’m thirty-eight.

this past year wasn’t exactly what i dreamed it would be. i suffered heart-break. didn’t succeed at running a sub-4 hour marathon. lost friends. am still in florida. and my birthday wish ~ the same one i’ve wished for three years now ~ didn’t come true. i could sit here and cry about it. worry about another year “wasted” and fret over the new wrinkles and extra grey hairs. one step closer to forty and what do i have to show for it …

a lot! thirty-seven brought me added insight into who i am and what i want and deserve in a relationship. i opened up my heart to the possibility of love again. something i wasn’t sure i was capable of doing. i ran two marathons ~ one my current PR the other with food poisoning! i faced my fear and registered for a triathlon. i made amazing new friendships and added dimensions to existing ones. i watched my daughter grow physically and emotionally. 365 days of pure awe that this amazing little girl is a reflection of me. i added laugh lines and played around until deciding i’m best as a redhead. fiery and feisty. every day of thirty-seven added to the woman i am today and when i woke this morning and looked in the mirror i loved the depth of heart and soul i saw reflected.

here’s to the next year. may it be everything ~ and nothing ~ i dream it will be.


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5 Comments Add your own

  • 1. Red  |  June 17, 2010 at 9:20 am

    Awesome– just like you!! You inspire me with your strength and determination, your sassiness, sincerity, compassion and zest for life. Thanks for making my life a lot more festive! Happy Birthday!! xoxoxo

  • 2. fitandfortysomething  |  June 17, 2010 at 10:25 am

    oh i love this! happy birthday! i know you will have a wonderful day 🙂
    i especially can relate to two things: opening your heart to love again and adding laugh lines-i especially need to look at it this way!
    happy birthday blog friend!

  • 3. kitkat1126  |  June 17, 2010 at 1:16 pm

    Enjoy your day & just think… who knows what amazing/exciting/awesome/inspiring things you’ll have to list next year at this time! 😉

    (Today is actually one of my younger sister’s birthday too!)

  • 4. ultrarunnerbrianphilpot  |  June 17, 2010 at 6:27 pm

    Happy Birthday!! I’m about to turn 39 in July so I have almost a year on you! I win! Or not! Hope you have the best year ever!

  • 5. bgirl875  |  June 24, 2010 at 12:17 am

    OMG! I’m such a bad blog friend. I think i need to sign in more to my FB page, so that I would have forewarning.

    Soooo needless to say, your birthday wish is on CP time. Happy Belated Birthday. And this post is really amazing, and shows how much this year has taught you.

    You go girl!


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