down and out

June 21, 2010 at 10:31 am 3 comments

i tried running. after an argument with my ex husband saturday night that left me consumed by anger (an emotion i rarely fall victim to) i woke sunday morning in desperate need of trails. having gone two days pretty much pain free, i sent SR a text asking for miles. he approved ~ tentatively ~ an easy three. all day the weather threatened to keep me homebound but by late afternoon the skies had worked through most of their fury and i headed to bbs with a friend.

nothing cleanses my soul like trails. i’m not sure if it’s what nature has or what it lacks. maybe it’s because i feel like i’m running towards nothing. no manmade landmarks or you-are-here street signs. i wanted to run hard but knew better so i took a nice easy pace and though i wanted more i stuck to the 3-mile limitation. somewhere on those three miles of dirt and sand i shed the stress. let go of what i could. it takes so little to remind me why i run.

but i knew something was wrong as soon as i got in the car. i’d promised to ice as soon as possible after so i’d brought my ice pack. what should have been a cool relief felt more of a burning sensation. my muscles were screaming and my lower back talked back. almost three weeks down and what i found was more pain and all i could do was cry.

SR says it’s ok. a mild setback we’ll work through. but between the piriformis syndrome and my ex i’m tired of pains in the ass and it’s becoming easier and easier to fall victim to a woe-is-me attitude.

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Entry filed under: divorce and co-parenting, fear, injury, relationships, running. Tags: , , , , , .

the blob namaste

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  • 1. ultrarunnerbrianphilpot  |  June 21, 2010 at 11:52 am

    Boy I know all about it! A good trail run after dealing with the ex-wife is just what the doctor orders, well at least I do! My ex is just on a different road than me, so I shouldn’t be too hard on her. Keep your head up!

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  • 2. fitandfortysomething  |  June 21, 2010 at 1:10 pm

    i totally agree! nothing feels as cleansing as a good trail run. really glad you did it 🙂

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  • 3. Red  |  June 21, 2010 at 2:44 pm

    I hear you. I feel so much better since I started back exercising. Hang in there, xoxo

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