getting what i want

July 7, 2010 at 11:30 am 3 comments

i would never consider myself entitled but when i want something i tend to get it. not because i’m spoiled or get handed anything on a silver platter, but because i go after it ~ hard.

i want a sub-four hour marathon. it teased me at MCM. was well within my reach until the ankle went wonky and i had to back off speed work the last six weeks of training. for gasparilla i knew early on that mentally i wasn’t prepared to commit to it ~ especially since the intent was to do the half and not the full. but the day i registered for chickamauga it was there in the back of my mind scoffing at the hills and the hell of summertime training. i knew that with 110 percent effort i could and would get it. but not long after i registered, i got knocked down with this pain in the butt and the uncertainty behind it and i’ve been trying so hard to not get mentally defeated before training even officially starts.

yesterday i went to my ortho. with a piriformis syndrome diagnosis from SR and an insistence by my chiro that it’s an SI joint issue, i told the ortho niether. i wanted a completely unbiased opinion. no suggestive maybes from either. i admit i was a little worried he’d come back with a third, entirely different diagnosis that would lead me to have to continue in my search for answers. but instead he came back with this ~ SI joint dysfunction in conjunction with piriformis syndrome. ha! both. so what does that mean and where do i go from here?

as frustrating as it is, for the time being i keep doing exactly what i’ve been doing. swim, elliptical, weight train. anything and everything i can do to keep my fitness level up. ibuprofen is a three-times-a-day snack. mornings are a heating pad and throughout the day ice. yes, i now do both at my office and must look quite the fool walking around with an ice pack shoved down the back of my pants but thankfully my coworkers are more than familiar with my dedication to the run and the self abuse that comes with it. i’m still seeing the chiro twice a week for adjustments and i start PT at the orthos’ next tuesday. i am damned and determined to get this behind me!

it’s been hard but i’ve got to keep the chin up. i have to realize that this is not a run ending injury and chickamauga is not the end-all-be-all of marathons. i will run it one way or another. and, as hard as it is for me to accept this, it’s ok if i don’t get what i want. i’m far from giving up. quite the contrary in fact. this goal is still well within my reach. technically training starts on July 25. coach eko has my plan done but he’s been holding it hostage waiting to see what happens before he taunts me with the sub-4 numbers. but i want them. i want this. and i always ~ well usually ~ get what i want.


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matched while i was sleeping

3 Comments Add your own

  • 1. fitandfortysomething  |  July 7, 2010 at 1:19 pm

    yes just be patient….it is hard but you will be well soon!

  • 2. kitkat1126  |  July 7, 2010 at 9:32 pm

    I love your positive attitude! And I swear, thinking that you get what you want – helps you get what you want 😉

  • 3. ultrarunnerbrianphilpot  |  July 11, 2010 at 9:12 am

    Go get it girl! With the right training you will get it!


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