false start

August 30, 2010 at 8:18 am 3 comments

friday night i ran. four miles! not fast. a few walk breaks. but four miles nonetheless. the plan had only been two. just to test out how i felt. but once i got going. i needed more. though i couldn’t claim it to be pain free, i had felt improvement and maybe as important had starting to feel more secure that running through this won’t do further damage. i think the chiro is wrong. i think the spondy sleeps and his diagnosis did nothing more than frighten. though i’m not convinced it’s all muscular yet. the past week or so my si joint has been sore to the touch. but i needed to try and see how it felt. and though i was dumbfounded how pathetic my cardio level felt, the run itself felt good.

the test of course was saturday. would i wake in pain, rueing the run. cursing myself for doing too much too soon. when an early morning text from tri-guy woke me from my not so deep sleep, i almost hesitated to roll out bed for fear of what i’d find. but much to my surprise i felt ok. not perfect but no more discomfort than i’d felt every morning the last couple of weeks. tri-guy was headed out for his saturday morning ride and it motivated me to put down the coffee, throw the bike on the car rack and head out for my own.

i wasn’t sure what i could manage on the bike. there’s a definite hip pain. and i’m bothered by the fact i feel what i can only describe as what feels like a leg length discrepancy when i bike ~ though i don’t have one right now. but once on lola and riding steady i felt good so i went with it. every seven miles or so i’d stop. stretch the back. stretch the leg. i ended up doing 25 miles. at a slow but respectable 17 or 18 mph average. i was feeling great!

but sunday morning everything felt off. maybe it was the over indulgence of sauvignon blanc with my favorite girls. or maybe it was sleeping on red’s couch. or maybe it was the fact that i pushed myself too far … again. give me an inch, i take a mile ~ many miles. yesterday evening, i tried a short run but the body failed. not yards in i knew it to be a bad idea so i turned around and with my tail between my legs sulked back into the house.

today i’m a wreck. hiding behind a closed office door with tears of frustration. i need this to be over. i need my run back. i need my life back.

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  • 1. Kalli  |  August 30, 2010 at 8:34 am

    You are getting there! Read your post- you ran 4 miles and biked 25!!!!! That is awesome and way more than I have been doing. Hang in there- full recovery is coming. Be gentle to yourself 🙂

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  • 2. Red  |  August 30, 2010 at 9:37 am

    It was the couch! Plus– I agree with the last comment- you had a great weekend! Celebrate what you did do, and take it easy on yourself, sweet girl.

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  • 3. kitkat1126  |  August 30, 2010 at 2:32 pm

    I third was Kalli said! You ARE getting there. It probably doesn’t feel like it but if you look where you were a couple weeks ago (no exercise) to being able to run 4 miles and bike 25 – you’re on your way. Full recovery definitely takes time, and I’d be impatient and frustrated too – BUT – full recovery IS coming. The 4 miles says it. But definitely let your body keep healing. I’m still thinking positive thoughts for you and for your run!

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