over the river and through the woods

September 19, 2010 at 7:11 pm 3 comments

sunday ~ 4 miles ~ sd trails with j
monday ~  off
tuesday ~ 1.5 miles neighborhood with sab biking ~ i hurt from the beginning and the entire run sucked
wednesday ~ 3 miles ~ gym tread + arm work + stretch yoga
thursday ~ off
friday ~ off
saturday ~ 6 mile trail run ~ trout creek + gym arm work (with sab)

holy crap! i ran 14.5 miles this week! and even more exciting … i ran 6 miles yesterday!

after last weekend i was both excited and frustrated. running again at all was such a needed improvement but i couldn’t help but be a little disappointed in my cardio. when all this first started i worked hard to maintain. swim, bike, elliptical … whatever i could manage. but after a while  kind of gave up. stopped going to the gym regularly. started letting the pain define me. but this week i feel i finally started to take back control.

after a failed run attempt on tuesday i got pissed. i can’t understand how some days are ok and others so damn bad. i know i’m not back where i need to be and i accept it’s likely a long-term process to undo a long-term issue but i couldn’t fathom how could i run four miles on sunday and then on tuesday barely make it a block before dealing with radiating pain. wednesday i opted to work at home. i wanted a run. i wanted to prove i could do it. push through it and take back what was mine. so i took my “lunch break” at the gym and set my sights on the tread. three miles was all i wanted. fast or slow i didn’t care. the first few steps were a little off but then i zoned … found that place i belong and pain or no pain, i was lost. three miles. done. screw you tuesday run!

that night i ended up at yet another new yoga studio. the class sounded perfect. relaxation and stretch. and that was all it was. an hour and a half of deep stretch poses held five, sometimes 10 minutes. it’s so obvious to me now that this issue is all in my pelvis. all misalignment. tight muscles pulling me where i shouldn’t be. weak muscles not doing their part to hold on. we hit them all. opened up the body. and, though i feel weird admitting this, opened up the soul. and in one pose i actually found myself crying. not sad tears. not angry. simply releasing. cleansing.  thursday night i hoped to get in another yoga class but the day was just nonstop. a late afternoon impromptu meeting with my boss and jc left me sad and disappointed. and then a swearing-in ceremony for sab and the rest of her school safety patrols had me on cloud nine of mommy proud. by the time i got home i was emotionally drained and simply wanted to unwind.

friday evening i was about to get on the tread when sab got a call from a friend asking her to spend the night. for months i’ve been watching and declining invites from a new group. saturday morning runs ~ almost always on area trails ~ have been a temptation i’ve yet to be able to indulge in. but here i was, last minute, with a maybe. and i opted to take it. i took sab to her friend’s, ate a light dinner and went to bed early.

i’d never been to these trails. never run with this group. but both ended up being perfect. the full route was 14 miles but you could do with it what you wanted. some ran together. many ran apart. i just knew that i was running. in woods. and that made me happy. i expected to be slower and to hang back with some of the obvious other newbies but i took to the front pack, found my place and fell in. the newly arrived break in humidity made all the difference and i felt better than expected.

i’ve never fallen running. never. on trails or treads. pavement or track. a stumble here and there but i’ve never gone down. until yesterday. i hit pretty hard on crushed shells and my elbow and leg took the brunt. there was quite a bit of blood. there was a little bit of embarrassment. and there was that moment of worry that i wouldn’t be able to get back up. but i needed this run so i brushed it off, got back on my feet and kept running for six miles  ~ 6.18 actually 🙂 my longest run in more than three and a half months!

today i have so many “what-ifs” running through my head. i had started to let go of chickamauga. assumed i’d never be able. but now i can’t help but hope. there will still be bad days. in fact today has been kind of a hodge-podge of shifting pain. but yesterday was invigorating and i want more. can i, in eight weeks, get back to where i can run 26.2? not fast. not the desired sub-4. but can i not let another race go wayside and unrun. would i feel better running my worst time ever versus not running at all? will a 5+hour marathon do more damage than good ~ physically and emotionally.

or did six miles and a nasty fall simply put me 20 miles ahead of myself?!

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me, myself and i eight miles high!

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  • 1. kitkat1126  |  September 19, 2010 at 9:05 pm

    14.5 miles over last week! Look at that, talk about progress! Wooohoo!

    I’m sorry to hear about the fall but it’s clear you got right back up again – as you’ll continue to do. I think you’re healing, just be sure to listen to your body and you’ll be getting your miles back more and more. 🙂

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  • 2. kitkat1126  |  September 21, 2010 at 1:22 pm

    ps: this post makes me want to really give yoga a chance.

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    • 3. becelisa  |  September 21, 2010 at 1:31 pm

      you really should! especially since you’re having muscle issues. runners are notorious for not effectively stretching. not to mention it really is a great way to just let go of all the stress we endure on a daily basis.

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