the unexpected expected

November 8, 2012 at 11:38 am 2 comments

it happened last night. the expected unexpected text from the hunter. i had just sat down to a girl’s night out dinner at the melting pot. it wasn’t much. a picture looking across his hot tub into the night sky with the words “a cool night under the stars has me reminiscing.” i was caught off guard. completely. general consensus at the table was i should just ignore it and i did ~ for awhile. but a couple hours later i responded simply “we had some wonderful nights in there.” i heard nothing back. not last night and not thus far today. and somehow the tears that i found streaming down my face this morning caught me by surprise as much as ~ if not more so ~ than the text itself.

i miss him. but i don’t. i love him. but i’m not in love with him. i keep hoping he’ll wake up one day and know without a doubt he can’t live without me. but i know without a doubt i can live without him. it’s an empty feeling right now. one that brings no comfort. i thought i was ok. had it all in check. but i suppose it should have been expected that even i can’t control the healing heart.


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they’re gonna’ miss me when i’m gone break point

2 Comments Add your own

  • 1. kitkat1126  |  November 8, 2012 at 12:01 pm

    Ugh, part of me wants to hit him for that text. The fact that you were moving forward, having a good night, and he sent something just to spark those feelings but leave you hanging/thinking/reminiscing…grr!

    You know you don’t love him, but you also know you’ll be on a roller coaster of feelings in check then feelings not in check. Eventually it all evens out – and it evens out faster if you happen upon a nice running guy… 😉

  • 2. Miss Mile High  |  November 9, 2012 at 11:37 am

    Don’t we all just want to be the one they can’t live without!?? Seriously. All other stuff aside, I just want someone to fight to be what I need. And that is all.


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